ok so as you all know i’m crazy, not clinical – or at least it hasn’t been diagnosed! i am well aware of the fact that my mind only seems to function rationally when circumstances are in black and white. it is more than evident that when there is the slightest bit of ambiguity i inevitably make the “bad” or “wrong” decision. why then when it comes to ambiguity in relationships does the same not apply? when dealing with matters of the heart why does my fight or flight syndrome become a matter of life or death. it’s a neurotic anxious over analyzation that becomes unbearable in the forefront of all thoughts in my mind. i get into this constant state of wondering whether i’m coming or going. the hilarious part is that the man that i’m dating usually thinks that everything is fine and that we’re in a great place. and here i am sweating donkey balls thinking that he’s going to call me in the next 5 seconds and say that he doesn’t want to date me anymore because _______ (fill in the blank – be creative!). yeah yeah i know you must be like “where is she coming from?” or “oh sh*t she’s crazy” but i believe that there are a lot of other women that understand my neurosis!
so now i pose my question – rant: no one ever answers my questions, you all read the damn blog at least answer a question or two – how do you ease the anxiety and just “go with the flow” (whatever the hell that means)?
side-note: can people start speaking english? phrases like “go with the flow”, “it is what it is”, “just let it be”, “you make me happy”, “it’s all good”, etc. these phrases are meaningless jargon and it needs to come to an end – especially if you’re an adult! learn how to actually say something of value with substance. saying these phrases doesn’t make you sound deep, insightful, conscious, smart, understanding, or any other synonyms you could find. you sound stupid idiotic moronic brainless - just don’t say any of them!
